The last few months I have been quiet on the blog scene and the reason was I have been trying to find a solution to a not so happy situation that was progressively becoming worse. Worse still, I was beginning to lose my sparkle and excitement for life and I didn’t feel like writing, something I enjoy immensely.
I was in a situation that I was not happy with and I knew I needed to do something but to a certain degree I was frozen with fear, fear of the unknown. Whilst I didn’t let it worry me and as I continued to plod on I realized that I was not living the life I was meant to. I was not taking action for myself and the saying is so true that if you don’t change the things you do how can you expect things to change.
So I had two very simple choices, stay doing something I didn’t enjoy or take charge and make a change. I sat on the fence for some time while I made my mind up. If any of my readers are Librans then you will understand the pains we go through whilst weighing up the pros and cons of any situation before deciding what’s best.
The thing is there is no right or wrong in a situation like this but the way we feel is always a good barometer to use in circumstances when we want a little bit of help in making our decisions.
Last year I went to Canada and had an amazing week with beautiful scenery and being out in nature I was in my absolute element. I’m always happy when I’m doing the things I enjoy. One day we had all ridden and ascended to the top of a beautiful mountain which was well worth it just to see the breathtaking views over the entire landscape, with snow, turquoise waters and the occasional appearance of a bear in the distance, not only was it special but it was also magical. During lunch, I took myself off from the group and quietly meditated and still to this day I can transport myself back to that moment and can feel such amazing energy from the elements. I have been tapping into this energy for the last few months until finally it has given me the strength to walk away from the situation that has been making me so unhappy. I know this is a bit of a cliché too but I am sure I had a little bit of an awakening out there, or for want of a better expression a “wake up call”.
Over the last few months certain things started to happen to me and because I was in a state of flux I sat up and started to listen to the signs and the way that was being shown to me. I came into contact with people from all walks of life that had turned their back on what they felt they should be doing and they had followed their heart and dreams. They had shown courage and faith. I then asked myself the question “what’s the worse that can happen?” at least I would get my sparkle, zest and happiness back and for me, as it should be for everyone, happiness, family and friends are the top of my list for a happy, rewarding and healthy life.
So this week I took the bull by the horns and handed in my notice. Yes, I am leaving a job that pays me a very good salary but was no longer giving me any job satisfaction whatsoever. I wasn’t making a difference and had absolutely no enthusiasm for it.
It is a scary thought, but I am a great advocate of facing our fears. More importantly, I think my life will now be so much richer simply because I will have more time to do the things I enjoy and hopefully will find a new role that I am passionate about. These things money just can’t buy and we sometimes forget when we get caught up in the corporate world and doing what we think is expected of us.
The best part of my decision is how I feel and I am so excited about the future, I have no idea what it holds but already things are looking up and hopefully I will be doing something that will make a difference. I am once again in charge of my destiny.
It really is true that when one door closes another one opens, in fact, I believe many more doors open. It’s just whether we have the courage to close that door in the first place. I am already so glad I did.
As food for thought, I would like to leave you with a quote from Napoleon Hill that also helped me with my decision process, especially the part of me that thought I would just continue doing what I was doing for a few more years.
“Life is a game, and the player opposite you is TIME. If you hesitate before moving, or neglect to move thoughtfully and decisively, your pieces will be wiped off the board by TIME”.
I would love to hear from you about any difficult decisions you made in your life and how your life changed as a result.
Wishing all my readers a wonderful week full of extra love and happiness. Sparkle like diamonds.